Watch my world dissolve And pretend that none of us see the fall As I turn to

new new new .. lj...

2005-04-19T21:35:30Z

new livejournal... .... dot__dot__dot

some days

2005-04-19T02:21:43Z

sunday:

hung out with michelle .. we went to the mobil ..

she went under the fence .. which you probley knwo

.. if you read her lj .... so i wont say much about it

monday:

went to school ...

1st- math .. dotn knwo what happend i got called down to the office

2nd- science-mostly talked

3rd-band .. got yelled at cause i couldnt play my instrument

4th-life choices ... learned about food poisoning

lunch-.. right after learnign abotu food poisoning ... well yea .. i have cookies .. and fries

5th ..got .. a 8th grade thing ...

6th- took notes ...

LYRICS

2005-04-17T00:49:58Z

;You are wrong, fucked, and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING

Shallow skin, I can paint with pain
I mark the trails on my arms with your disdain
Everyday it's the same - I LOVE, YOU HATE
But I guess I don't care any more...
Fix my problems with the blade
While my eyes turn from blue to gray
God, the worst thing happened to me today
But I guess I don't care anymore...

You are wrong, fucked, and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept cince I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie, motherfucker
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING

My flaws are the only thing left that's pure
Can't really live, can't really endure
Everything I see reminds me of her
God I wish I didn't care anymore
The more I touch, the less I feel
I'm lying to myself that it's not real
Why is everybody making such a big fucking deal?
I'm never gonna care anymore

What the hell am I doing?
Is there anyone left in my life?
What the fuck was I thinking?
Anybody want to tell me I'm fine?
Where the hell am I going?
Do I even need a reason to hide?
I am only betrayed
I am only conditioned to die</p>

friday and today

2005-04-17T00:36:54Z

well yesterday .... i hung out with michelle and megan .. it was fun ... we were running around and then andrew came .... and then this other andrew that is like from osme other place .. btu hes visiting his grandparents or somehting .. well any way we were there till pretty late ..and then we went to michelles played ddr then went on the computer ... and then her sister and her firends came home .. so there were 6 of us .. yea .. crowded ... but it was fun .,., the today i got a facial .. and then ate at the cheesecake factory...yea .. and now nobodys home ... so im listening to slipknot really loud = )
<3333
christy

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-04-13T19:49:00

2005-04-13T23:50:14Z

And the little boy stared,
Into the eyes of the night,
Button collects price of his time,
Lil girl glared,
Sheets of denial,
The Bullet connects to the price of her crime.

What have we said,
Wasn't it their bed,
What of our presence,
Haven't we payed penance.

Now the little boys sees,
Through the eyes of delight,
Levers erect note of his rhyme,
Little girl bled,
Sheets of the night,
The Lovers connect to the price of his dime.

What have we said,
Wasn't it their bed,
What of our presence,
Haven't we payed penance,
To the old gods and moved on,
To the old gods and moved on,
To the old gods and moved on,
To the new guns, to the new guns.

What have we said,
Wasn't it their bed,
What of our presence,
Haven't we payed penance,
What have we said,
Wasn't it their bed,
What of our presence,
Haven't we payed penance,
To the old gods and moved on,
To the old gods and moved on,
To the old gods and moved on,
To the new guns, to the new guns.

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-04-13T19:10:00

2005-04-13T23:10:52Z

like my new layout !?!?!?
brittany did it .. thank you !!!
<3333
christy

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-04-12T20:44:00

2005-04-13T00:45:11Z

1. Your Name:

2. Age:

3. Fave Color:

4. Fave Movie:

5. Fave Song:

6. Fave Band:

7. Most Embarassing Moment:

8. Are you a virgin?

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Are we friends?

2. Do you have a crush/attracted to me?

3. Would you kiss me?

4. With tongue?

5. Would you enjoy it?

6. Would you ever ask me out or go out with me if I asked you out?

7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?

9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?

10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?

11. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?

12. Do you/have you talk(ed) shit about me?

13. Do you think I'm a good person?

14. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)?

15.Do you think I'm Hot?

16. Would you call me just because?

17. Would you ever listen to my problems even if they dont involve you?

18. If you could change anything about me, would you?

19.Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?

20. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-04-12T20:35:00

2005-04-13T00:38:11Z

nose: cyw56
elbow: chbri9stgy7u
tongue: christy
chin: bhgfidtguyh
feet: c chrristry
eyes closed and 1 finger: chruidty
back of hand: u nbr65f8un mnyh5tq3azuhn 66y
palm: c h4ikszty th
wrist:cgh5uizstrfyt7
forehead: df7uv5 mi r7y 6uiu
what's your name?: chrsity

you dotn knwo how weird i look whiel i did that .... lol

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-04-12T12:50:00

2005-04-12T17:01:32Z

the past 2 days ive been sick well really its been sence friday so liek 5 days .. but i stayed home today and yesterday .. so yea ive been gettign alot do i guess .... well i made lemonade yesterday ... but its really sour ... i lost 4 pounds = ) ...watched alot of tv .... im gonna hang out with michelle after school ...i feel like ice cream ....

..... ok im don e.. youve probley seen them all but its ok .. michelle you need to find your camera so we can take more pictures!!! = )

love you all <33333

party !

2005-04-10T01:05:07Z

well im at my dads house and hes having a party .. yea .. btu its his surprise party btu its weird .. idk... well yea michelles eating dinner .. bretts down stairs smokign with my dad and his friends who are probley drinking .. sherrys in the kitchen and im upstairs .. .. and im sick .. and bored .. yea i feel liek shit ..
comment if you love me !
<333
love you all christy

cant wait for my lj layout to be done !!!!

2005-04-08T03:25:59Z

im getting a new layout soon im waiting for the comm. to finish i cant wait ..but iono if itll look good cause i didnt really look at the colors i just picked them randomly .. hmm .. it might be ok cause my backround is sort of rainbow .. so hmm iono .. but i would like to look at something pretty ..... when i check me lj

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-04-04T17:38:00

2005-04-04T21:38:09Z

( ) go out with me?
( ) hold my hand?
( ) give me your number?
( ) let me kiss you?
( ) have sex with me?
( ) play an SM scene with me?
( ) watch a movie with me... even a really sappy one?
( ) let me take you out to dinner?
( ) drive me somewhere/anywhere?
( ) take a shower with me?
( ) be my gf/bf?
( ) have a fling with me?
( ) listen to me if I called you, crying, even if you were out with all of your friends?
( ) buy me a drink if I didn't have money?
( ) take me home for the night?
( ) let me sleep in your bed?
( ) sing car karaoke with me?
( ) sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
( ) come and pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
( ) re-post this for me to answer your questions?

beckys party

2005-04-03T17:36:47Z

well i went to beckys bat mitzvah it was fun we danced and ate and danced then ate cake and then we went home but it was fun and we got shirts and a guitar .. i got a pink one .. yea... and ill probley hang out with michelle today sometime

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-03-27T21:34:00

2005-03-28T02:38:50Z

finally having a party ...
heres a list of people invited .. comment if i forgot you ...

1.michelle
2.libby
3.brittany t.
4. jayme
5.aislinn
6.amber
7.readhel c.
8.colin
9.joe
10.tanner
11.tasha
12.brittany m.
13.megan
14.viktor
15.melony
16.becky
17.katlyn

yea ok
<3333
chirsty

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-03-24T19:50:00

2005-03-25T00:59:14Z

[Your Friends ]
x. [Do your friends know you?] some of them
x. [Are there traits in you that are universally liked?] idk
x. [How many people do you tell everything to?] i dont tell anybody everything...but i tell michelle most things and aislinn
known longest: michelle
wish you talked to aislinn
how many friends do you think you have: a little over 10
who drives you insane after a while:=x
who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: probley michelle ... mayeb idk
ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level': no .. what the hell
craziest: aislinn and michelle
loudest: megan
shyest: michelle
best hair: libby
can always make you laugh: aislinn
best eyes: idk
best body: idk
hot tempered: megan
most impatient: libby
shortest: michelle
tallest: libby
talented: all of them = )
best singer:libby
skinniest:libby
nicest: all of them
best personality: libby says aislinn maybe michelle libbys cool .. i cant decide ... all of them

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-03-20T21:53:00

2005-03-21T03:00:39Z

put it in your lj ...just for no reason at all
**put X's where it applies for you!

(x) snuck out of the house
( ) gotten lost in your city
( ) seen a shooting star
( ) been to any other countries besides the united states
( ) had a serious surgery
(x) taken a shower with a member of the same sex
( ) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) done drugs
(x) had alcohol
( ) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) made out in an elevator
(x) swore at your parents
(x) kicked a guy where it hurts
( ) been in love
( ) been close to love
( ) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
( ) broken a bone
( ) been high
( ) had sex
(x) given someone a bruise
( ) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
( ) flashed someone
( ) had oral surgery
( ) seen a therapist
(x) done the splits
( ) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
( ) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) stole something from your job
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) been walked in on while have sex
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
( ) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
( ) Eaten Sushi
(x) kissed your cousin
( ) Been snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) Been moshing at a concert
( ) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
( ) been in an abusive relationship
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
( ) had oral sex
( ) tried killing yourself
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
( ) been kicked out of college
(x) ruined what could have been a great thing

no school for me !!!= D

2005-03-18T13:35:41Z

i didnt have to go to school today .. he he .. cause its feild day .. yea ...and my brothers stayign home too but my mom doesnt know and so hes driving around somewhere ...lol

well i was talkign to michelle earlier but then she went to the bus stop ... but im still talkign to her i told her to put an away message up ... so she did but then it went away ... but shes not there ...

yea ok

<333333333333

christy

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-03-14T13:41:00

2005-03-14T18:42:42Z

...join now ...8 D

my weekend

2005-03-06T19:36:42Z

well this weekend i was in naples =D

friday after school i went home with libby and me her and michelle went to the mall i bought candy a book a journal and a smootie and then me and libby sent the night at michelles house

then saterday me libby and michelle took a cab to vineyards park to hang out with colin joe and nick and then i came home around ...4 adn then i went to brittanys b-day party we hung out at the house and then ate pizza ad then went to see be cool at the movies then came back and spent the night

then sunday when i woke up i called my brother back cause he had been callign and then he got mad cause he wantewd to go some where but he couldnt till he picked me up so then he picked me up i got home and now im bored michelles not home so i cant hang out with her ... im so so so so so bored i want her to come home !!!!!!

<333 christy

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-02-26T19:51:00

2005-02-27T00:54:00Z

well .. im in marco and i was really bored so i pierced my belly button ... =)

i went to the mall today ...i spent liek $60 at victoria secret ... i got pjs and some little shorts type things

and then i came hoem ... i saw viktor at the mall and some other peopl ethat go to my school but liek i dotn hang otu with them

adn now im bored again ...

comment
<333 christy

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-02-17T17:14:00

2005-02-17T22:24:02Z

ok well this weekend was fun ...

i went to michelles .. then we went to the park and hung out with colin nick and joe .. joes cute .. well yea ... ok then i went back to michelles and spent to night .

then woke up hte next morning and went to the fair .. were we hung out with colin it was fun we went on the ring of fire .. the zipper ... big ben and other rides that i cant remember the names of

then sunday ... me and michelle went to the mall meet up with colin and joe .. then we saw lkibby but her sister dragged her away .. colin was glad ...i got a jacket ... and a cd and 2 new pairs of pants :D

yea then monday i went to school ... and went and learnded stuff ...

then went to school tuesday ... learned even more

went to school wendesday

thn went to achool today ... i was so tired ... i went to geography first ... talked abotu this person did a bunch of worksheets and then started watchign this movie ... then i went to life choices and started sewing .. then i went to lunch it was ok not as fun as it was when tanner was there but still and then then i went to language arts and did a start up ... went over homework and then readthis thing adn talked about it thn .. i was rally tired ... today sucked ... and i was realyl pissed .. i dotn knwo why bt i was

<3333

christy

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-01-25T11:02:00

2005-01-25T16:10:12Z

well im bored ,
i stayed home today so i guess ill tell you about my weekend
...
my weekend :
friday (after school)-i dotn really remeber but i probley just stayed home ... or went to michelles thats what i usually do , so i guess thast what i did
saterday -went to libbys service thing it was good she didnt mess up but it was long ,after i came home hung otu with brett fred and thomas then went to the party thing it was really fun michelle and aislinn were acting weird ,liek they were jumping around and dancing and i was hangin out with tanner and chelsea and katie while they were doing that i danced with tanner and he wanted to make out but i couldnt cause one of my friends that was there liekd him to and then i would have felt bad so i just kind of flirted with him all night and he really needs to watch his hands ,lol they were every where .
sunday _didnt nuthign at all ... wll i hung out with michelle ...no michelle im just kidding i had fun with michelle we hung out and i ate dinner over her house ... it was good we had crab, steak , potatoes ,beans, and shrimp !

well right now i just got back inside from having a smoke and im goign to start texting everybody so i hope their phones are on silent or ill do it at lunch or somethign

<333
christy

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-01-17T22:17:00

2005-01-18T03:21:10Z

prison death

coming to consume me

racing hearts

bleeding wings

all encaged

lingering out in the hall ways

my freedom moves

racing about the hard ways

my freedom consumed

down in the dept

my mind is teased

looking around

i want to bleed

but i promised

...but i need

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-01-05T18:13:00

2005-01-05T23:15:51Z

well i got a new schedule today ...
i have life choices 4th period now
i dont knwo if its fun yet cause tiday we were just talking but the teacher seemed ok

poem ...:

fallen hearts
hidden fears
misread emotions
scarce little tears

blinding light
numbing pain
loving eyes
become all the same
cant take control
cause control is taking over
pain is growing
love is going away
emotions stop forever in pain

my pain will never stop
my blood will always flow
i am forever in pain
the days go by
...im not the same

<333
christy

comment if you like it ...
comment if you don't

ckdeprivedsoulx @ 2005-01-01T23:00:00

2005-01-02T04:10:03Z

well it's saterday.....
woke at michelle's
played ddr
walked to my house
walked back to michelles house...... she got ready
went back to my house .. i got ready
went to aislinns house .. to pick her up
went to king ricards ...
played ddr went outside went on the thing that goes upside down
went on go carts got something to eat
went inside to play ddr btu then ...
aislinn got in troule cause she was late
and her mom thought that there was going to be an adult there although nobody told her that well...
that's it

the day before ...
played ddr at michelles
spent the night
had a smoke
went to bed

ok ya thats it

<333 christy